As Christmas Presented Itself

I didn't start out with a lot of enthusiasm for Christmas this year. We were very broke. With plenty of expenses.

Like the Snow-Tire Deadline. December 15, every vehicle has to have four snow tires on.

True to form, Hubby bought his on the 14th, and slated the installation, alignment & balancing for the 15th. Well, at least we actually MADE the deadline!

But that whopped the heck out of the paycheck. He told the kids, "Everybody's getting a TIRE for Christmas."

For days and weeks, the kids bugged us about putting up a tree.

"What's the point?" I asked. "There isn't going to be anything under it."

Our employer added to the fun. Every year since its inception, McGill has paid the end-of-the-month pay (slated for the 31st) on the 23rd of December. Hubby has been working there 32 years. For his 32 years, and my 19, we've been getting that extra paycheck just before Christmas, and we've been using it to pull Christmas presents out of a hat.

But noooo - not any more. We were notified on the 15th that, oh, by the way, your pay of the 31st will stay firmly where it is, until the actual 31st of December. Happy Holidays!

I had a quilt deadline for Christmas, so instead of sewing up a storm of presents, I was quilting. That meant for me that I couldn't start making Christmas presents till the client had picked up her quilt, which she did, on the 19th. So that's when I STARTED making gifts.

I noted with what I think is called "wry chagrin" that my cousin had all the gifts WRAPPED by that date. Sigh. Maybe next year.

Well, Santa pulled down a miracle. The EX gave Hubby back his support payment for the month of December.

See, the kid he's paying support FOR has been living here, with US, for six months.

"Has she found religion?" one of our pals asked.

I don't know. But we did find ourselves with a Christmas after all - complete with tree, food, and gifts for all.

Nobody was more surprised than me!

On Being Gainfully Employed

So, on December 16, my eight-weeks period of Rest (HA!) came to an end. I was back at work.

It was nice to get out of the house. Nice to see the people I work with again. I still remembered how to turn on the computer this time... And they'd saved me a JOB to work on!

A loverly color brochure, with pictures taken specifically for it, and working with C, who is SO SENSIBLE about cutting text to the minimum...

I'd say my usual things like: "This brochure serves the purpose of a business card. You don't need to show how many credits each program is, just show 'em the exciting bits!"

...And she GOT IT! I love C. She "groks" things.

Everybody liked my weird fold design...

Anyway, there I was, second day back at work, and I get a tap on my shoulder. It was Hubby (who - you guessed it - works in the same building as I do). I looked up at him. "Yes?"

"Can we eat," he said.

I looked at the clock. It was past two o'clock.

"OMG!" I exclaimed. "I didn't even notice it was past feeding time!"

We grabbed our grub from the fridge and headed off to the lounge. The instant I stood up, I felt all rubbery, and realized...

"OMG! I didn't even eat BREAKFAST!"

Now, to some people, this wouldn't be noteworthy. For ME to miss not just one feeding time, but two, and IN A ROW, could be front page news! I haven't attained my "mature" profile by being a picky eater!

Not only that, but my astrological sign is LEO.

Lion.

Ever seen a hungry lion?

Want to be the guy that feeds the lions at the zoo, and MISS two feeding times, in a row, and try to go in there to feed them? I thought not!

I quipped at my boss, "See what happens when you give me something FUN to do?!"

Ah yes. I'm back at work. And loving it.

... but, would a jury of my peers convict me?

Okay, so, a couple of weekends ago, I had a laundry intervention.

I had gone downstairs in the hopes of putting on some laundry.

The way to the washer and dryer was blocked. A solid wall of piled laundry, laundry baskets, gym bags, blankets, boots, and hallowe'en decorations prevented access to the machines.

I ranted a few minutes, uselessly, then burst into tears and ran upstairs, where I took action. I called my friend K. I begged her to come over and view the devastation.

See, in OTHER people's houses, whenever you go in, the owner says "oh, please, excuse the mess!"

Only, there's no mess.

In MY home, however, there IS a mess.

Of BIBLICAL proportions.

See, Hubby and his two DNA replicants moved in around 13 years ago, and from that day to this, have behaved as aliens occupying my home, heedless of my pleas and protestations. They shrug their shoulders, they roll their eyes, and they use that amazing phrase that solves all their problems for them:

"It wasn't me."

Yeah. Right.

So my friend K came over and surveyed the battleground with me. I asked her one question: "Am I overreacting?"

She stared, slack-jawed for a few minutes before comforting me in her arms and saying, "No, you're not overreacting Deb. You're not imagining it or making it worse than it is. It is catastrophic. No human being should live like this."

I felt an immense surge of relief, and the tears of gratitude flowed faster than the tears of frustration had done.

From there, we went to the living room and called in the troops for a family meeting. We discussed personal cleanliness, respect for ourselves and for each other and for the house. There was whingeing and whining, and a lot of finger-pointing and many "It wasn't me"s... but in the end, rules were made.

From now on, all aliens do their own laundry.

No dirty clothes, and no clean clothes, are to be placed in any shared space.

No laundry can be started without being completed.

No-one is to sabotage anyone else's laundry-in-progress.

I continue to do linens. You should have seen the faces when it was suggested that each of them receive their own selection of towels and sheets! The horror! The humanity! Being adolescents, they're quite comfy with the idea that they will pick up their clothes from off the floor to wear out to school and work, but the thought that they might have to use a damp, smelly towel after their 45-minute showers.... Well, they were very happy to let me continue to do linens.

Buoyed by the success of the laundry intervention, I went through the kitchen and diningroom last week, removing tools, wires, electronic parts, CDs, DVDs, plugs, screws, nails, books, magazines.... In short, everything in the kitchen and dining room now belongs to the category of FOOD, and THINGS THAT GO WITH FOOD, like pots, pans, cutlery, napkins, etc.

So you can imagine my reaction today, when Hubby brought one of his new snow tires and new rims into the livingroom.

I piped up immediately. After all, one must nip these things in the bud!

I said, calmly and quietly, "Are you intending to put the tire onto the rim?"

Hubby said "That was the general idea."

I replied, "Well dear, the place for that is the basement, not the living room."

Hubby got the mat from the front hall and threw it on the living room rug. "It's okay," he said.

"Um... no it's not, dear," I said politely but firmly. "You have a workshop downstairs..."

"It's not big enough," he said flatly.

"... And there is also a nice clean section of floor in the laundry room, which is also in the basement," I continued.

He replied by throwing a wrench and a long yellow tie-down on the floor beside the tire.

"You intend, then," I said, "to continue to work on the tire, in the living room?"

"Yup," he said flatly.

I got up and went in search of my cell phone, which has a picture-taking function. I took a picture of the mat, tire, rim, tie-down, and wrench in the living room.

A few minutes later, as Hubby was bent over the tire, I took another picture.

I emailed the pictures, with the captions "Yes, he's doing this in the living room," and "Save me!" to his brother and a friend of mine.

I said to Hubby, as he was pounding away at the tire, "You know, I'm pretty sure you brother is not permitted to bring tires and rims into his living room to work on them."

No reply.

I said, "I'm pretty sure my friend R isn't allowed to, either."

No reply. Hubby now stands up and attempts to get the tire to go into the rim by rocking violently from side to side while trying not to fall.

I hear sounds of Stepkid yawning and stretching in her room. "Hey, Stepkid!" I call out. "Come and see your Dad making a fool of himself!"

"Shut up," said Hubby.

"Well, you DID make an appointment for tomorrow, right? And they have all the necessary tools, and you don't? And you have to pay them anyway?"

The reply was a soft growling sound.

"Well then, darling, I think you should stop this nonsense before you fall off and hurt yourself. Put it away, and go do something useful."

No reply, not even a gutteral one.

Stepkid came in to inspect. "What are you doing," she demanded.

"What does it look like?" Hubby snapped at her, stamping his feet on the tire.

Stepkid watched for a moment and then got up on the tire with her father. Instantly, she recognized the futility of the venture and alit. "Forget it, Dad, it's not going to happen," she said, exiting the room.

Eventually, Hubby did get down off the tire, only to try using the tie-down in a different position. I watched without comment as I did my quilting, for about ten or fifteen more minutes. Finally, Hubby got himself a cup of coffee and sat down. He looked at me soulfully.

"I don't suppose you'd be willing to help me do this?" he asked.

"You suppose correctly, dear," I answered. "Put it away. Put it out of your head. You're always complaining you have no time to do anything around here. Well, you have six or seven hours to play with today. I don't care what you do, as long as it's useful and productive! Go fix the shoe stand like you wanted to. Do some laundry if you wish. Build a fire in the fireplace. Vaccum the sawdust from your workshop. Build something. Do some stained glass. Sort your books. Read a book. Have a hot bath. Punch a hole in the wall for the washer's new position. But GET OVER THIS."

I got a glare and a growl.

So, my question is:

Is YOUR husband/father/brother/whatnot permitted to play with tires in YOUR livingroom?

What would YOUR or YOUR MOTHER'S reaction be if your dad/spouse/whatnot tried to do this sort of thing in the livingroom?

And finally,

Would you convict me?

The Sixteenth Birthday Fiasco

I'm writing this hoping my StepDaughter will one day read it, just not this week. Or next month. Maybe not for a year or so.

Or maybe tomorrow.

Yes, this has all the elements of a good family drama in it - shock, surprise, humor, denial, grudges, battles, and of course, lots of love for a charming, witty, talented young lady I'd give the earth to if I could. And so would anybody - she's that wonderful.

A week or so ago, Hubby and I were presented with Stepdaughter's 16th birthday wish-list.

It was a wonderful list. It was short, and it was obvious from the contents that it had been carefully thought-out. There was an Mp3, and money, of course, at the top of the list. Then came a request for trips to the rock-climbing place - definitely affordable. A request to finally get her duvet-cover MADE - we'd purchased the fabric LAST year, and never made it yet. And also on the list was - are you ready for this? - a new set of bed sheets.

I could have cried. That's so MATURE! For a 16 year old girl to realize that our finances are such that a set of bed sheets, which normally would come filed under "household expenses", to be put on a birthday wish-list... Well, I was impressed. You know you're growing up when your wish lists contain linens and appliances!

Hubby and I agonized over how much money to give her. Because the budget doesn't have ANY room at all - not for $25, certainly not for $100, which was what we eventually gave her.

And Hubby signed her up for courses at the rock-climbing establishment, which you have to take before you can do any real climbing.

We briefly discussed having the florist deliver a corsage on her birthday morning with a single pink rose, for her to wear all day. We decided it would be too ostentatious. After all, lots of other kids have birthdays, and they don't get to wear corsages all day!

And I put my head down and got to work on the duvet. It took three full days work. And there's a subplot, involving StepSon.

Subplot A: Stepson's story

Stepson is (hopefully) going to start work tonight as a busboy. He's been not working since the beginning of September. Ergo - he has no money, therefore, no gift to Stepdaughter.

He was peacefully snoring his heart out at ten yesterday morning, when I couldn't find an item I needed to finish the duvet cover properly. A seam-binding with particular qualities. I know I have another roll here somewhere... but last week my shelves fell down, and I'm still digging out from under the rubble.

ANYWAY... Hubby said to give the phone to Stepson, he'd tell him to get up and go buy the stuff for me from Fabricville. I said, was that wise? Let sleeping teenagers lie, etc etc etc.

Hubby said "He's feeling guilty about not having anything to give her. It'll make him feel good."

I said "Can I quote you?"

Long story short, eventually Stepson DID get up, go to Fabricville, pick up the item, come home cheerfully and proceeded to bake his sister's birthday cake.

But here's the subpot part: I kept wondering if Stepson would remember that, for his birthday this year, he got squat. Or rather, his Dad made him a lemon-meringue pie. No card, no gifts. No money.

And his aunt & uncle also gave him squat.

That's because Stepson was in the proverbial doghouse at the time. No need to go into details. Suffice it to say, for those dear readers who don't know Stepson, he was 19 going on 6, with all the attributes that go with that particular demographic group. And he was being given a clear message: no more gifts. Nothing more for free. Get a job.

So, back to yesterday. I kept wondering how much resentment lingered in Stepson's mind, or how much was going to be built up, over his sister's 16th birthday. We were joking about a birthday card he could make for her "On your 16th birthday, Sis, I forgive you for being born!" We laughed over that one, he and I. Then he pulled an unused birthday card from off a shelf, and said "I didn't even get a card on MY birthday! Here it is!"

And, of course, because I can't think on my feet, I told him the truth. "Oh - that was for my stepmom's birthday," I said. "You're in good company - I never gave her a card, either! And you were kind of in the doghouse, dear, on your birthday this year."

Oops. The look on his face was utter shock. He immediately hid it and turned away. But up to that point, he had not realized that the omissions were, in fact, intentional. He had honestly thought we'd all just forgotten, and he'd been fine with that. But now, it hurt.

Oops. We'd meant the message to sting, but we'd meant it to sting BACK THEN - not NOW, when he was being NICE.

End of subplot A.

Okay, so there I was, frantically sewing all day. My back was aching, my neck was going into spasms, I was too stiff to stand up. The thing was beautiful. Her dad had designed it, I'd done the cutting and sewing, and she was getting a piece of artwork for her bed that was special and unique. And, for once in my life, flawless. I done good!

I was still doing good when she arrived home. I was one half-hour short of finishing it. I kept sewing, since, well I figured she'd known I was working on it anyway, and if not, well, the best place to hide things is in plain sight... So I just kept sewing. I'd wanted to finish it and have it on her bed before she came home from school, but we'd lost time looking for the seaming stuff, so there we were.

Stepdaughter and Friend arrived, breathless, excited, positively glowing. Came right into the sewing room, and plonked down in dramatic fashion, the following items.

One dozen perfect Red Roses, complete with Baby's Breath and Greens, in their Clear Plastic Wrapping with Kisses all over it.

Four helium-filled balloons - one a metallic that said "Happy 16th Birthday", tied with multi-colored ribbons to a small tin.

Four other packages containing things like makeup and gift cards, etc.

She opened the tin and said "Read this! This all came during English class!" She was radiant.

I read the note. It said "Pack your bags darling - you're going to ENGLAND!"

Subplot B: The Trip to England

Every year the school does this trip to England during March break. Stepkid had figured out a while ago that our budget just didn't have room to pay for this trip, and had not said a word to anyone.

But two weeks ago, in casual conversation with her RealMom, she let something drop. One of her frineds was going, or something like that. RealMom got the details.

End of Subplot B.

Yesterday, during the school day, RealMom's Big Surprise took place.

RealMom had arranged with the English Teacher not to tell Stepkid about the Big Surprise.

RealMom had got her friend to go to the florist, get the balloons, do all the fancy fussing-up, all those special things one can do with presents that turn a room into a rainbow of hearts and flowers. Spectacular, Unexpected, Dreamy. Special.

Said friend arrived at the door of English Class. English Teacher welcomes Friend in, who brings this rainbow of delight to Stepkid, who starts crying with joy immediately. Who opens the tin. Who finds out that she's going on the unaffordable trip after all. Who cries more. Who's cell phone rings, who's RealMom is on the phone to hear her daughter's excitement. Friend, RealMom, English Teacher and Stepkid are all crying and shrieking with delight.

Sigh. It was beautiful. I can see it, just like it was on the silver screen, perfectly timed and choreographed down to the last detail.

Then Stepkid's Friend said "Hey! Is that the duvet cover you're sewing?!"

I just looked at her. Gee, thanks, Friend.

"Oh! Ha-ha!" laughed Stpkid. "I didnt even notice!"

They went away, leaving the rainbow sitting on my sewing table. I continued to sew.

I was thinking about the other kids. The ones in the English class. The ones who aren't going to England, The one whose cancellation made a spot come available for Stepkid. The ones who had just turned 16 themselves or who were about to, and no sudden unexpected trip to England was waiting for. Or Roses, or Balloons, or strangers arriving to interrupt the class, or to whom no cell phone calls were permitted during class time.

And I know exactly how they felt, watching all this excitement over Stepkid's 16th birthday. They might not have the vocabulary for it, but it's there.

"What's so special about her that she gets to have a phone call with her mother during class time?"

" Why are my parents making me work and pay for my own trip to England, or, why are my parents making me pay half my trip to England, or, why aren't my parents letting me go at all?"

"How come I didn't get roses on my 16th birthday?"

I thought about how Hubby and I had decided that a single pink rose corsage was too ostentatious.

And I sighed, and got on with finishing the duvet cover.

I don't remember my 16th birthday. I remember my 13th, because that's when I got my first bra.

I remember my Daughter's 13th, because that's when I wrote lyrics to a popular song and sang it for her. On my Daughter;'s 16th, I didn't have any money. But I gave her the engagement ring her father had given me, and she treasures it.

Well, Stepkid's evening progressed. When she first came home, she was of course full of adrenaline and plans for the evening, even though it was a school night. She and fifteen friends were going to Starbuck's, Village, Body Shop. She had a gift card to use at Body Shop that was only good on your birthday, and you got a discount or something. They were all going roaming the wide world over. "What time's supper" she wanted to know, since she had to plan all this for herself and her friends, and timing would be critical.

"Uh... I wanted to finish this," I said.

"That's okay!" Out she bounced, higher than a kite.

I finished the duvet cover and put it on her duvet, washed my hands and went to work making supper. I was halfway through chopping when Hubby got home, exhauseted, as usual, to see the dozen roses sitting in a vase on the table. And got told the story of the English Class Surprise from RealMom. Made all the appropriate "oohing & aahing" sounds. Tiredly got up to help me with the chopping.

Once it was cooking, I went to lie down, to give my back and my neck and my knees a rest.

And after dinner, the disappointment blow was cast. I felt awful, I went to bed. I wasn't going to drive her to the body shop.

And neither was her dad. He was tired.

She could see this - you'd have had to be blind not to see how tired he was. Every night he comes home, I worry he's in the middle of having a heart attack, that's how tired he looks.

"Pleeze!" she tried on him. Smiling, cajoling, all to no avail. She'd come bump against a fact of life: we are old, tired people. She worked on both of us for over an hour. In bed, I could hear her on the phone, couldn't make out the words, but I think she was crying. Uh-oh. The Princess has been let down. Sorry kid. I'm dead. Some other birthday.

Whe Hubby came to bed, I don't know what time, we cuddled up and he let out a long sigh.

"It's a wonderful gift," I said.

"Um-hm."

"Delivered in sensational style, as usual," I said.

"Um-hm."

RealMom has Style, with a capital "S". Gotta hand it to her.

Trying to comfort Hubby, I pointed out that RealMom probably got her dad to pay for the trip.

"Um-hm."

In one masterful stroke, she had undone anything we'd done for Stepkid's celebration. Blink, and you missed it. Boy, that was fast. "What did you get for your 16th birthday?" "A trip to ENGLAND!!!" Period.

There's no way to compete with RealMom. She's a force of Nature.

Subplot C: My high-schooling

I, too, received special treatment in high school. Like Stepkid, I was bright. Actually only studied one subject, and that for one week, to coast through and get a gold medal for the highest marks in the whole school board.

Other kids had to do the assignments as they were assigned. I got let off, because I'd been writing about something else, and the teachers loved my spark, and they let me do my own thing.

I loved it at the time. Got my own way - what teenager wouldn't have loved special treatment?

But it didn't help me. I never went on to university. I went to one class. Did half a term. Failed miserably - MISERABLY.

Because I'd never learned to work hard.

Univeristy is geared to hard workers. Like life. You can't get a degree by being smart. You have to do the work.

And I didn't have any friends in high school, either. And with 20/20 hindsight, I can see why. "Teacher's Pet."

With 20/20 hindsight, I should have failed a bunch of high school courses, not been rewarded for not doing the assignments.
That might have wakened me up to reality. In time to save my education.

As it is, I woke up to reality when I was a single mom in my thirties, the day my dad said "No. You can't have any more money. You have to pay your own bills."

What - I'm responsible for my own financial security?! How come nobody told me this before?!!!

End of Subplot C.

So, the first day of Stepkid's seventeenth year was sensational, over-the-top, joyous... well, if you don't count the fact that nobody drove her out to the Body Shop...

She'll remember it all her life. It was a marvelous, magical, thrilling event. It may outshine her Graduation or her Wedding.

I remember flamboyant. I used to be flamboyant. I used to hate people who told me I was flamboyant. Over the top. Loud. Flashy. Sensational.

But that's been beaten out of me, bit by bit, step by step, since the day Daddy said "No," and I've been paying my own bills.

Now the task remains - get Stepkid through highschool, through University, with her Flair and Panache intact, while still getting her an education, teaching her to work hard, to save her money, to pay her own way. To be sensitive to the fact that not everybody around her is having as good a time as she is. To try to explain to her somehow that though the England trip is in fact a wonderful gift, the news COULD have been delivered quietly, without a big show. Her Dad could have been told of it. That the flowers are lovely and the gifts wonderful, but they could have been delivered here, not at school, not in front of her classmates, and by extension, the whole school. That there was no need to rub everybody's nose in the fact that she's a sweet kid and her RealMom loves her.

To try and somehow get it through to her that EVERY kid's mom loves them, that EVERY kid at her high school turns 16 this year, but that not every kid got this sensational treatment, that there will be resentment she won't know of or won't understand... Or won't notice.

Without spoiling her fun.

Din-Din

I'm often amazed by what happens to food between the time I see it on a grocery store shelf and when I throw out its mouldy remains from my fridge.

Take last night's dinner, for example. Hubby, who was the last-one-out-in-the-car, called me from the grocery store. "They don't have any pre-cooked chickens," he said tiredly. "I'm stumped."

"It's okay," I said. "Just buy anything that should feed five people - I've already started some fried rice."

He turned up with twelve chicken thighs, backs attached, and two jars of some Indian sauce. "These are what I bought last time, aren't they?" he asked. They weren't, last time he'd bought chicken breasts, but he was unconvinced and proceeded to try to persuade me that this was indeed the same cut of meat he'd bought last time.

Busy with my chopping, I declined the invitation to fight, and let it drop. He was, uncharacteristically, too tired to continue the argument alone. I went on chopping celery, my rice frying happily.

Then we had a phone call from an elderly neighbour I'd been concerned with earlier in the day. There's this guy, a great big hulking lout of a man, who frequents her house whenever his welfare cheque runs out, and he does yard work for her. He scares the willies out of me, and I often worry that one day he would try to force his way in... but that is not today's topic. Yesterday, Hubby held his cell phone up to my ear as I was trying to chop stuff for the fried rice, and while I was thus engaged in conversation with my friend, the rice burned.

First wrinkle in the dinner plans.

Fortunately, I'd seen it right away and removed the pan from the burner. I scooped out the worst bits and left the pan off the burner till I was finished chopping. Hubby said "Sorry," and I said only, "just leave the rest out. As soon as I've got this seasoned I'll start on the chicken."

Hubby, who was dead-tired, was not so easily deterred. Martyr complex aside, he knows that lots of noise and activity bustling around me when I'm trying to make dinner within a specific length of time often upsets me - a LOT - and he dutifully began trying to take the skin off the first piece of chicken. It didn't LOOK like that, you understand. He was massacring it - bending the bones this way and that, cutting off most of the usable meat and leaving the skin firmly attached.

"DARLING!" I shouted. The word I used was "darling," but It must have sounded like "SHITHEAD!", because that was in fact, the way I meant it...

"I'm only trying to help," he said feebly.

"Go lie down!" I ordered him. I've got this COVERED!"

"Are you sure?" his voice whined.

I was ready to explode. How many times, how many different ways, would I have to say it till this man would leave me alone and let me THINK!

He finally exited, and I could get back to my rice. Celery, carrot, broccoli, leftover chicken meat, pepper, salt, three cups of water... something was missing... I tossed in some Basil, realized that was a mistake, but no getting it out now, put the lid on, and started to heat the oven.

As I was stirring the two jars of sauce into the pot, tearing off as much excess fat from the chicken as I could without picking up a tool, it dawned on me that the rice would be ready in ten minutes, while the chicken still had an hour to run. So I turned off the burner under the rice and gave the chicken my full attention. Minutes later, with every piece thoroughly coated, I stacked them up in the corningware pot, stuck it in the oven and set the timer for 45 minutes. Washed up, and left the kitchen to go to the sewing room.

When the buzzer rang, out came the chicken, still mostly raw. I put it on a baking tray, skin side up, and spooned sauce over it. Back in the oven for 30 minutes, and I proceeded to peel some apples for a quick apple crisp. No time to look up the recipe - I winged it totally. Had time for a quick run back to the sewing room.

Twenty minutes later, my spider-senses tingling, I arrived in the kitchen just in time to see the level of fat in the shallow tray about to come spilling over the top. I found the baster, and it was thus that Hubby found me, with oven door open, bowl of fat resting on the oven door, sucking out fat with the baster and dumping it in the bowl. Wanted to know what I was doing.

What is it about men that they always need to have the obvious explained to them, anyway?

And so a few minutes later, with the chicken and rice in serving bowls and the apple crisp in the oven, all five of us sat down to dinner. (Stepson had asked his girlfriend to join us - this time I'd had an hour's notice! Whee.)

Not enough though apparently, as Girlfriend didn't eat rice.

For crying out loud - who doesn't eat RICE?

He made her eat a bit off his fork, but teenage girls will be teenage girls. She had one measly piece of chicken and swore she was full.

I dutifully picked up a forkful of my burnt, over-cooked rice, and...

I'd never tasted anything so good.

I didn't hear much of what was being said around the table, trying to remember what the heck I'd done with the rice that made it taste so good! Could it have been the small handful of raisins I'd tossed in? I'd forgotten to put in onion - usually a staple when one is trying to make something out of rice... I'd meant to toss in a bay leaf, but had become flustered when I'd put in the Basil... I'd also forgotten the soya sauce, so the rice, despite being slightly scorched, wasn't particularly brown... The chicken I'd thrown in had been the remains of a store-cooked barbecued chicken we'd had four days previously, nothing special there...

Yet it tasted like food of the gods. Got compliments from everyone (except Girlfriend, of course).

The chicken tasted like chicken, nothing special. Everyone had two or three pieces, except aforementioned girlfriend.

Later, while we were piled on the couches in front of the tv, we demolished the apple crisp, which had apples cooked to perfection that melted on the tongue, and a crunchy topping that tasted like caramel.

Best apple crisp I ever made. And damned if I can remember what I did!

Things we do under protest...

My Grandma had an annoying little rhyme. (Actually she had several, but this one is pertinent to the theme!)

"A man convinced against his will
Is of the same opinion still," Gran used to say.

Man, I used to hate her little rhymes and sayings! Mostly because they were bang on.

I have occupants of this house here, two "men". One man, one teenager who, while being of legal age, hasn't quite caught up to himself yet. I call it "nineteen, going on six."

Neither of these men can hang up a towel.

Not just any towel, you understand.

The hand-towel in the bathroom.

Before I let Hubby into my life, Daughter and I always managed to get the towel hanging straight, back on the towel rack, where it belonged.

When Hubby first arrived on the scene with his two DNA replicants however, the towel began to reside on the floor.

Under the towel rack.

Various excuses were made. "It's too high," or "it's too slippery" or the old favourite, "It wasn't me."

Yeah, right.

I clothes-pinned the towel to itself. They'd take the clothespin off, and drop the towel on the floor, and just for good measure, drop the clothespin on top of it.

I put in safety pins. That actually worked for two whole days, before an enterprising, if uncooperative, individual unpinned them, dropped the towel on the floor, and hid the pins in the glass for rinsing after brushing.

I tried separate towels, with name labels. But one particularly uncooperative individual decided to use everybody's towel but his own, leaving his untouched on the bar, and the other three towels on the floor.

I left notes taped to the wall, pleading, cajoling, and threatening them if the towel wasn't put back properly. They seemed to find these exquisitely amusing.

But the towel stayed on the floor.

A couple of birthdays ago, the youngest agreed she was quite capable of hanging the towel back up. And we had relative peace, except when Hubby knocked it off onto the floor, by "accident."

Then StepSon returned this summer. Nineteen, going on six.

And the towel lives on the floor once again.

I'm getting desperate. There doesn't seem to be any way I can convince either Hubby or StepSon that this issue is important. At all.

If StepSon were in his seventies, we'd be trying to get him into a "home." He leaves the freezer door open. He leaves the milk out on the counter. He leaves the burner on the stove on high, with nothing on it, and goes out for the afternoon. Not to mention the myriad stacks of glasses, cups, plates, cutlery, and candy wrappers he collects under the sofa, on top of the computer, in front of the tv. Sometimes the pile is so high, we can't even see the tv. And it's a BIG tv!

I have ordered. I have begged. I have screamed. I have cried. I have explained patiently. I have explained impatiently.

I am talking to the Rocks of Gibraltar. Two very stubborn Irishmen, with one soul between the two of them. I may as well be talking to the cat.

I'm now begging you, anyone who reads this, HELP ME!!!!! I'm DESPERATE! Please give me some ideas, any ideas, as to how I can drive this point home to these two individuals (short of nailing a note into their crania, that is...).

Please help. I don't think I can hold out much longer!

Finding Passion

No, not that kind.

Well, actually, yes, that kind is involved, but I'm starting from the clean one - finding what you're passionate about in life. (With apologies to my pal R, who first used that phrase to me.)

I was talking with Stepson earlier today - in itself a minor miracle - he seemed to be interested... Explaining to him why Daddy and I aren't footing a bunch of bills for him, now that he's enrolled himself in something. "If you're passionate about it, L, you'll find a way to do it no matter what obstacles are put in your path. If it doesn't grab you, no amount of free money will get you through it." Bottom line: get a job, pay for your stuff yourself. If you pass, you'll get it back. You don't pass, this time it's your own money you wasted.

Harsh. Well, at least by comparison to how things have been done in his young life so far. Thus far, he's had a free ride, and we've now pulled that rug out. You want it, you pay for it.

Heck, he's still living rent-free and getting fed. Nowhere near a "difficult" living arrangement. But you have to start somewhere if you're ever going to help a kid grow up.

Anyway, we got into this big discussion of our passions - things that really turn our respective cranks.

Like Hubby. Works with computers all day. First thing he does when he comes home is open up his computer. He's watching tv and surfing. Hell, he's fallen asleep with the laptop open on his tummy!

Hubby is passionate about computers.

I am passionate about layout, graphics, spelling, and quilting. And a few other things not suitable to mention in a public space.

Point is, you take your life in your hands if you ask me about one of these things - in the sense that a great deal of it may pass before your eyes while I'm going on and on and on....

Because I can't stop talking about them. Can't stop thinking about them. The ideas come flooding in, too fast to catch, too many to make in one lifetime...

Ya gotta find your passion in life! Otherwise, ...

Well, otherwise, what the heck is the point?!