Blessings

Years ago, when I was in a deep depression, my pal R had me start writing down good things that happened to me.

Each day I was to write down anything that happened wherein I felt I had had help to get through a task or the day.

At the beginning, all I could manage to scribble down were things like "loaded the dishwasher" and "did a load of laundry." Because at that point in my life, I needed divine help to get those things done.

Within two weeks, I couldn't keep up with all the positive things that were flooding my life.

Despite still struggling with getting out of bed in the morning, still whining about having to take a shower, still at the bottom of the well in terms of my emotional reserves, I could not keep up with all the blessings I was receiving.

This was an exercise in bringing back my faith in Life. No matter how sick I was, I was still being blessed daily with numerous small miracles. I began to see the light at the end of the tunnel.

I am still bombarded daily with divine help. Today one especially amazing item is flooding my soul to the point where I had to share it.

I'm knitting a dress for Daughter. We picked the project and color together. I'm taking a course so that I make it correctly, I'm taking all the time I need to do it properly.

As I wrote in an earlier blog, knitting is now something that soothes my soul. And this particular yarn is fit for the gods.

Extra-fine merino wool, silk, baby camel...

It floats on the air like dandelion fluff! It is the softest thing I have ever touched, and I've touched some pretty silky kitties in my time! It is as soft as eider down.

I can't believe I'm allowed to touch this stuff! I have to pinch myself when I think of how it will look on Daughter, that I will have been permitted by the universe to make something so beautiful.

I've never known anything so lovely that I had a hand in.